Sunday, September 13, 2009
hahahahaa. i laugh at my life right now. i never knew so much cud happen in one week. it amazes me.
its amazing what people can do and keep doing it. im really amazed at that.
how do they do it without feeling the slightest bit guilty.
i dont understand... how does this world work?!
i can't take in so much in one week. its too much for me.
why make my life difficult? its not the first time you`ve made me drown in my own tears okay. enough is enough. i honestly dont know how you can continue on? do you really like seeing me in misery?!?! started all on saturday then ending.. wait hasnt ended... my bad. but this will be the last time im going to think about all this. it doesnt matter what happens, life moves on.
exams coming up. why shud i get affected from this ? i shouldnt let it get to me. exams are my first priority. not you.
but yes. i dont have many i can trust right now. no let me rephrase that. i dont know WHO to trust.
i am amazed from what you have done. you have broken even friendships for me. thanks a lot.
but i am so glad theres always my church (L) love you all. just being with you guys make me feel like there are no problems. lets me forget about everything else in the world. it just makes me happy and im so glad it does (L)
you dont scare me. dont you worry. but i want you to know. you have done something wrong. you should know deep down you have. i know your not going to admit it. i`ll even say that i`ve done something wrong but who hasnt ? who hasn't done something wrong in the past.
oh, almost forgot. i also thank whoever has been there for me till now and still supporting me. i just thank you for just being there and comforting me. even though you can't do much about it its already enough to have you there encouraging me. i dont want anyone else involved in this so dont do anything please.
i apologize to mk right now. im so sorry for ruining your day. i know you can say "it doesnt matter" and "not your fault" but deep down do you really feel that way ? i know you dont so im sorry. i know you just dont want me to worry. who wouldnt be upset if it happened on someones birthday. And im sorry for causing everyone trouble because of one person. no, apologies over the internet arent acceptable. but i have said sorry to mk in real life but i just want to say that it is partially my fault and i feel deeply regretful.
i hate these things happening. i hate seeing these things happen. but i can't do anything unless the other party plays their part too. go ahead use my blog as an excuse yea ? i dont know how your going to but go ahead USE IT. DO IT. but what im saying right now is 100% what i feel now. and im not doing this for sympathy points thanks. i just want YOU to know how i feel right now. i dont need people's sympathy just because im shoving all this on the internet, this cud be all fake of course. but i dont fake it. im not as good actresses as some. sorry.
i dont know why you chose that day to cause trouble, i dont know why you think its "fun", i dont know why you like to cause all this to happen. i just dont know.
let's just say. im confused.
p.s. 2PM isn't 2PM without jaebeom <3
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